Why Does She Stay...

Tired of being ignored, frustrated with lack of intimacy and bored with the regular routine, yet she stays. Pursued by those looking to impress, catered to by randoms' and flirted with by on-lookers, yet she stays faithful. Questioned by relatives, sterotyped by co-workers, and pittied by married friends, yet she stays patient. All needs provided for, comforted during difficult times and proof of his love, yet she complains. Never going without, goes as she pleases, and is never questioned, yet she still seems to think the grass is greener. Is it possible to live with anything if you have the one thing that you can't live without?

Her Dreams

How does she hide her secret obsessions for the unknown? Her professional demeanor keeps her from looking like what she is thinking on the inside. Always wanting the freedom to express her sexual desires but never the courage to live up to that image that’s often looked at negatively. Suppressed by years of portraying what everyone else wants her to be, she holds back from opportunities that will allow her to live our her fantasies. She can only let loose in her dreams where her private desires can replay over and over in her mind. In her dreams she doesn’t feel the need to uphold a certain reputation or reach certain standards set before her. This woman can use her subconscious to reach an ecstasy like no other. The age old question of “what will they think of me” won’t be on her mind; only the thoughts of how satisfying this is for her. Under this deep subdue of intimacy, she will be fulfilled in ways that she never thought possible and which will only heighten her desires for more. Just as she reaches the most satisfying climax ever, she awakes to her cell phone ringing….it’s another late night call but she presses ignore and rolls over thinking, “what type of girl do they think I am?”

This is what he said...

Aint no Sunshine when she's gone, it's not warm when she's away, aint no Sunshine when she's gone and she's always gone too long. Wonder this time where she's gone, wonder if she gone to stay, aint no Sunshine when she's gone and this house just aint no home anytime she goes away....and IknowIknowIknowIknowIknow.....-Bill Withers...

Death of a Stick-Up Kid

Time of Death: 10:00pm Sunday, February 22, 2009
The Headline read: Tragic Death of The Stick-Up Kid. The Coroner’s reported that this death was not as unusual as it sounds; it’s actually very common in men his age especially when they indulge in such activity. The Coroner goes on to say that there should be a warning label on consuming too much of a dynamic, no nonsense woman and mixing with generic brands; as it can always be fatal. The Police report reads: Late Sunday night Officers responded to a series of suicidal text messages that a man wanted to end his life. The dispatcher failed at several attempts to get the man to call in to talk about it but he never obliged. Once the lead detective arrived on the scene they begin to search the area carefully wanting to be wrong about the man and hopefully salvage the situation. Walking through an abandoned house they noticed that the door wasn’t broken therefore they assumed it wasn’t a robbery but possibly the man was invited in. As they searched the house they found empty glasses with traces of Malibu Rum and splash of pineapple juice all over the house. As they walked out to the back of the house they found the man dangling from a hammock, strangled to death with his blackberry by his side with a flashing message that read, “be careful what you ask for, your sunshine has set.” The man was identified by an identification card in his wallet as Stick-Up Kid. The evidence proved that the man’s alcohol level for a “friend” was way over the normal limit. He had over indulged in Malibu and Pineapple and his glutinous ways had finally cost him. It appeared that the Stick-Up Kid hung himself with an un-used hammock fit for two. The classic case of over consumption of an “in the meantime” fix while he looked for a stronger addiction closer to him that would be easier to consume for HIS pleasure. He was warned about his consumption habits but he just seemed to want more and more without regard to how it would affect the people around him. It appeared that the man wasn’t fully aware of how strong a drug this was. He was told that if he succeeded in his addiction that it was with help but if he failed then he would be left with no clue why. It seems that this man didn’t want help to beat the addiction but instead wanted to enjoy the high without responsibility. The interesting part of the analysis was that the drug could actually be good for you if consumed responsibly and in moderation; however this young man seemed to have asked for more than he could handle. Only the best of the best, considerate, non-self absorbed and ego strong can handle this drug. There was a comment by an eye-witness from the Pittsburg Steelers: “It’s a shame this had to happen this way, he had so much hidden potential but got too self-absorbed to see what was happening to him. I’ve been down this road before so I could see it coming. I just didn’t think he would commit suicide like that; too bad he took more than he could give. I guess it’s true what they say; only the strong will survive. The article concluded with the following statement: Drink Responsibly!

The Idea of a Man

Without a second look, he disappears from her mind but later his kind words makes her take another glance and ponder on the idea of this man. Enjoying the attention that someone so far from thought could give so effortlessly, but all she could think was why he was trying to place himself on her radar. Riding the wave, she begins to get use to the idea of this man. Looking forward to his flirtatious text and sweet comments now and again, she found herself daydreaming of what it would be like to see him, touch him and feel him. Sustained by her visions of this man, she remained her distance yet curious. The idea of this man kept her from feeling lonely and uninvolved. As time passed, she begins to get tired of just an idea and wanted something more tangible. Frustrated with not being able to hold back her desires, she withdrawals in herself no longer content with just an idea. She realizes that she cannot make him what he’s not. Yet again she feels reeled in and thrown back ashore wondering why the idea of a man entices her more than the actual man.

Guilty Conscious or Great Minds Think Alike?

He never understood her rainchecks. He didn’t see it necessary to want more rest before an early meeting. He didn’t get the point of going to an afterhours diner after the club with the girls even though she wasn’t hungry; and he just didn’t like the fact that she would rather text than call at times. He often asked a lot of questions in efforts to gather info on her whereabouts all the while making plans of his own. He starts by planning to ask for his own raincheck when he is really just going to see someone else when she asks to spend quality time together. He mentions that he has an early meeting to deter her from expecting to stay over. After coming home at 5am, he explains that he had to sit with his friends at an afterhours diner while they ate because he wanted to sober up before driving. He text rather than calls her to say that he is going to bed early to avoid her hearing the other woman’s voice. Is it that they are alike and have mutual respect for each other? Or is it that her answers and actions cause him to think about all the times he has said the same things she has but did other things? He knows his lies work. He knows what she could possibly do with that extra time away. He is sure that she has the potential to think of another when with him and he is certain that she will simply deny any accusations and turn the issue on him if confronted. He knows her best but expects her worst; all because he reflects on himself. Guilty conscious’s of great minds’ do think alike.

said it best

Alicia Keys: Prelude To A Kiss