Please Excuse This Me

Pardon my smart remarks, excuse my dismissal heart and don't take offense to my memory lost of what we had, as I am suffering with a miserable mind. Please believe me this time when I say its me and not you. I've done all I could to prevent this, never wanting you to feel as if I didn't love you or I didn't care. I am subdued right now in a new state of being which I cannot control. Please understand that I would give you the best of me if I could, if I had any left to give. You are worthy of knowing the true and not just at the receiving end of a fake smile.